You were someone better to take care of me,to love me and pamper me.
But all that didnt stay long.
I was hoping i could have you here with me on my birthday and have our raya together this year.
but it seems that all of it have to be put aside.

i've disappoint myself,i've bring embarassment to myself,
just to tell you how much i have love you and still wish to have you around.

for a moment,i extremely lost my mind...

and this is all...why?because of you...

♥ 22:19

Its the next day already.
I'm feeling better physically but not emotionally.
And i'm seriously losing my focus so badly.
I just wish it never did happened.

Ya Allah,beri kan la aku kekuatan dan kesabaran.Amin.

♥ 05:04

It was unexpected for us to start this story of romance and love as we started of just as an acquintance.
A beautiful story it was.
But unexpectedly too, the story ended.
I thought we're able to pull through all obstacle together but i was wrong.
All the best sweetheart.You've been great.and i hope i did well as your partner.

I love you.

♥ 22:07

I guess it was a mistake to let it happen.
Now i regret.and in the end,my heart shattered again.
i could understand why what how your feeling is.
and i know very well you understood mine too.
factors about us that keep us well was the mutual understanding we have.

i want so much to leave cause i think you need it too.but i felt so hold back.
i dont know how you gonna try it out work it out or whatever you are thinking.
i'm unsure myself.
i feel so hurt and i dont know what i did to you or my previous life that make me deserve this.

well,it was pleasant enough while it lasted. i let time heal us.

till then, when i talk to you again.

♥ 09:41

The more you fear,the more it will come to you.
This is reality.
I can see it coming.
Please,i'm tired enough.
I don't want to lose anything again.

♥ 11:38

as cheerful as i could be seen
as depressed as i am in the inner side.
something is bothering me so badly.
something that i can hardly figure out and pull it out of my mind.

and how am i suppose to relieve myself??? neither could i talk to him nor her.
haix.

♥ 17:56

at times i just thought i did a wrong move.
at times i thought the story should not have start at the first place.
people fall in love
gave chance
begin the story
and make its journey
on the outer side it always look so fairytale
on the other,you'll never know
i love you
and you're my fear.

♥ 22:22

Basically, past weekends was simply filled with activities...

so lets make the pictures do the talking.

Saturday 11 July.

Baby's at work and i'm out for a little fun *winks*





Location: Costa Sands NTUC chalet,Pasir Ris
Event: Abg G's 32nd Birthday Party
Theme: Pirates

It was Abg G's, my colleague,Kak Haidah's hubby,32nd bday party.being the assistant organizer,was an honour.the party and the surprise went well as per planned.lucky me her family members is a bunch of fun people.glad to be a part of it.till next time when we have fun together.

credits to kak fezah for the photos.

Sunday 12 July

It was a small reunion outing cum dine is session at Swensens for our sentosa love,Nazerah and Yuszaida's birthday. Well, we girls gave them a choco heaven for their gifts.korang dah gain weight by the chocos,call aku ok. ;)








for sure,with this girls,it has always been fun,laughters and smiles.miss you girls so much!

Saturday 18 July

Lets get near to the beauty of nature babey!!

Baby brought me to Qian Hu Fish Farm!!! :)) do you see me smiling?did u?did u?Damn! i was a happy kid!



i'll make sure the next visit there i'll have my fish spa foot reflexology! how i wish mum would let me keep my own fishes.i am soooo tempted to catch small fishes there....geeeeraaaamm aku nyah! lagi2 part2 tgk ikan koi yang bogeh tu makan!!

next stop was west mall. we had durian pancake!!! hahaha! oh my goodness! those were soooooooooo durian-licious la seh!!! nk more can?baby and i were going crazy over it.haha!

next stop.henderson waves.simply just lepak2... :)



and this is the result of the contented tired girl.



till then,i'll blog again.

♥ 15:24

Just looking forward to see the Dearest today.guess who??

tick tock tick tock.

♥ 05:31

boo!



i'm a happy girl last saturday! why?cause at last i got to watch Transformers.it is DEFINITELY AWESOME.i have a hard time booking tickets okie.i only got to book midnight movie which was at Yishun and i swear i felt lucky.damn! thanks baby for melayan-ing,you know how bad i wanna watch it.i love you.

next,congrats baby,you have successfully passed out from your fire fighter course.i'm proud of you.abg bomba! abg bomba! wahahaha..kwang kwang kwang!

oh well,baby will be working shift and the whole weekend routine will have to change. :( i really hope we are able to hold on together and go through this whole situation.though i know there must be matters that will cause misunderstandings and whatever you can think of.

i'll try hard not to think about it but the fact is,you can never run away from it.


till then,

Irfah

♥ 23:14

i always hated the fact of having misunderstanding with someone i love so dearly.

and i can never stay long not talking to you.fcuking drive me crazy.

but its no point either to talk if theres nothing much of a response from you.

do know even the most little thing that would make us not talk,will make me go crazy enough.cause i know we have very limited time for each other.

♥ 12:17