Last week,i lost my mind.

This week i feel pathetic.

I miss you sooo badly but i just felt its sooooo pathetic of me to keep on missing you and trying to comfort myself 'its ok irfah,its not as if you cant talk to him anymore'...but thats not the point.

if i could turn back time,i would keep on replaying the moments we had when we first started together and how loving you are towards me and how blissful we are.

My tears have dried up,its not because i cried too much because of you but what i have been through from the past relationships till now.its all about the same matter.masalah nya tetap pasal guys and relationship.i wonder,what have i been doing for all this while.

i used to flirt around as much as i can after i broke up.but i cant seem to do it now.why eh?did i just lost my mojo?things feels different now.its not because i wanna stay upset and dwell over the broken relationship neither i'm staying this way cause i'm waiting for him.its just that i cant do it.i cant flirt anymore,even worst,nk buat kawan pun otak aku dah mati beb.make me stay like this for 10 years,and i'll grow up to be a grumpy old woman,trust me.

for all i know,i just miss everything about him.but why him eh?no idea.i dont care what ppl say about this shit i'm going through,i'm just gonna spill it out.furthermore,i doubt he read my blog.so no worries....

He,was a different man i dated and been in a relationship.different from the rest.he rarely verbally show me he loves and misses me.he show it alot when he sees me.He,do not need flowers or chocolates to steal my heart,he just do it by pampering me.He,plays with my hair,hug me tight,He,kissed my hand everytime we see each other,He, never fails to kiss my forehead everytime he send me home,He,was that guy who would nag or scold me for something thats is really relevant.He,is the only man so far who manage to tegur my perangai in matter of whats gd and bad,that,being able to give me a knock2 on my head.for at least bring my ego down and make me learn to ngaku my kesalahan and ringan mulut to apologise.

He,was just a simple young man with something different.which i hardly find the answer,cause its just more than what i typed in all of the above.

For this lengthy post i have, is simply just to tell how much i misses him.wherever you are,whatever you do,i want you to know i love you so much and never can thank you enough.and i'm sorry too for any wrongdoings i made towards you.

p.s: i miss you a little too much.

♥ 22:00